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this is going to be long. because i have nothing better to do.

so i'm in fredonia new york. where is that? let me tell you where that is. it's like an hour outside buffalo, and like an hour away from cleveland ohio. it's right on lake eerie. and kind of by canada. why does that matter? because all of them elude to the fact that it sucks. well jan, why would you be in such a place? you live in boston now, isn't that adventurous enough for you? no rhetorical question asker, it's not. because lauren lives in fredonia. i will say this, SUNY fredonia is fucking nice. it's in the middle of dicksuck nowhere, but it's nice. why am i here now? when lauren is coming to boston on wednesday? well, because i woke up drunk, covered in sweat, and next to hanna and 8 other people in my apartment and decided to to come up here yesterday.

so i used the wonders of imaginary plastic money and hopped a greyhound to buffalo. which sucked. because it was 11 and a half hours long. we stopped in all sorts of cities in upstate new york that sucked. i never knew upstate new york sucked this bad, i've never been here.

albany-smells like trash, looks like trash, and has cool looking highways.
syracuse-i only saw a mall and that's it...
utica-sucked. dead. everythings empty. i bet it has a meth problem too.
rochester-had a lot of bars, and sucked just as bad if not worse than the prior 3. i haven't seen so many black people since a saturday night in roxbury.
buffalo-was kind of cool from what i saw, i'm going exploring there tomorrow with lauren.
fredonia-possibly one of the most rural places ever. it sucks. i think this town has a meth problem too.

this all just adds to the fact that i love new england more than pretty much anywhere else. fuck this place. however, it was good to get out of boston. now i'm homesick as hell, but it was good.

so, in boston it's been kind of fun i guess. things have been alright. i don't have a whole wealth of friends, i have a few good ones, some better than others but i still have a good time. i still ride my bike everywhere. i still hate community college. i still want to move to the fenway neighborhood. i still want to finish my half sleeve. i'm still trying to get those office jobs, maybe even 2 at once if i can swing it with my school schedule, if i could do that i'd be making around 800$ a week. that's not shabby. i guess i'm happy, i'm just happy that it's home. i'm kind of sick of hanging out with some kids there, some of them aren't too nice or welcoming so i don't see the point i guess.

i feel as if i'm finally ready to be in a band again. yeah, broadcast was fucking awful, i know. to be honest with you will walls ruined music for me, will walls will ruin music in southeastern ct, and not in a good way, even if there's a few good kids making some solid music. i don't think i'm supposed to put this in here but i heard the jackie steel demo's from steve, eric, if you read this don't get pissed at him, i bugged him about it, regardless, they were awesome. new clair is awesome. i really offer the best to those kids in those bands, if anyone can bring it back to southeastern ct, it's them. back up in boston there's too much going on. i'd really like to start a band or join a band, i just want to tour to be honest. i don't care about recording or even the longevity, that's naive, i don't give a fuck. i just feel like it's much easier to do things like that in boston.

i went down to the beach the other night, my grandma used to live like 20 minutes from there, she used to take me down there all the time and i'd sit in the waves with her because it made her skin feel better, she had skin problems i remember. anyways i was bumming on life and went down there and had kind of a breakdown. i was just sitting on a bench on the empty beach all shook up and some dude came out of nowhere with a card that said something along the lines of "if you're weary i will hold you" with praying hands or something. my grandma was all about that shit, and i looked back up after reading it and couldn't even see him. weird stuff. i miss her. along with my aunt who just died.

i'm currently in a starbucks on lauren's campus, which she gets included in her meal plan, lucky bitch. what else is going on. hm. oh, i'm going to niagara falls tomorrow, i've never been there and my dad called me and told me to go because he's never been so i guess i should do that. maybe that'll be kind of cool.

ok. i think i'm done. that's long enough for now. i'll probably update again tomorrow because i'm a loser and have nothing to do up here until i go home monday.

3 words.

taken. for. granted.



i wish things were like they were, i miss the affection.


i love the rogers boys, both were very hospitable to me last night. my friends are extremely good to me, i'm more than appreciative of them.

yehaw!

I don't care who you are, I'll add you, but it's friends only.

yeah how's it going. i now have a livejournal. please kick me in the nuts when you next see me for doing this.